For the past week I have been a bit under stress.
I was depressed, I felt giving up on everything. I got to the point of not leaving my room. Which then led to not going to the gym or just going out fully. But somehow I was able to attend a party at a friends house which I enjoyed. I tried new things and discovered a new lifestyle (well I didn’t follow through with it as I am still not into this party stuff. But I am willing to go and follow through next time).
To tell you the truth it was the first time I went out to a party, drank and enjoyed myself. But it felt uncomfortable as I didn’t get drunk enough to get involved. Well that is what I thought. Overall I really enjoyed it, I talked to a few girls.
Well going back to the subject of having a stressful week, I did have my ups and downs throughout the week due to work and *other* issues (can’t talk about it right now, but I will). And somehow it cleared up over the weekend and I really got some of the stress and depression out of my system. For example now I am not angry at stupid mistakes from other people. I just somehow let it go, which feels weird and good. Yeah, I know it sounds a bit weird talking like that but I was depressed and angry for weeks and I just got pissed off for nothing.
If I keep that up everything will be alright.
Well I have to finish up, today I will continue tomorrow. Writing this felt really good. I will post some more tomorrow.